Stuff like this happens all the time in life, its just one of those speed bumps in life that causes you to slow down thing and examine your life and see whats good and whats bad and kidn of wake you up to reality. I know he may be your first and first everything, but hes not your everything. hes not the only one that can provide you with wodnerful lasting memories, trust me he isnt you will find someone again. someone who will treat you better. but other than that you also have your friends your friends who will be there for you in the worst of your times as well. Just belive that you caan do this. and that you can move forward. you can do it.